I have been absent a while....
I really have no excuse other than I was lazy.
I went to the doctors on Monday....did lab work, and later on
today, I get to find the results.
Im gonna be honest with y'all, Im a little scared. I have been
trying to behave, but Im afraid it may be one of those cases of
too little too late.
Before, when I used to misbehave, I didnt feel the consequences,
sure- my blood sugars would read high, but physically, I did not
But lately, I have been feeling it. Which is why I started
behaving, but my blood sugars arent dropping to where they should
be, and I dont even know what that means.
Am I gonna end up with a pump permanently attached to my body???
That scares the shit out of me....and I am adamantly against it.
I do not want that. I guess I should have thought of that sooner.
And of course, in my scared state, my mind shoots to the absolute
worst case scenario.....will I end up on dialysis??
Will I one day need some sort of transplant?
Who the hell is
going to give me a part of their body?
Who's body part would I be
willing to accept?
Not some strangers...cause thats just gross.
And not a family
member, they may need it one day..
ok, Im gonna go find my mommy now...........